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What's fresh and new in the life and work of Seska Lee.Week of June 2nd, 2008I picked a few books at the bookstore the other day so I thought I would share my reading list for the month of June. First off we have the Wonders of the World. It is not actually on my reading list. It is a prop book for a burlesque number. It is quite large and features various architectural achievements. I bought it for the Egypt component and not for Montreal’s Olympic Stadium. It might be fancy looking but that thing has had such issues with its roof. The pyramids have the excuse of being around a few thousand years. ‘Le Stade’ does not. Now onto my real reading list… Bones to Ashes Kathy Reichs. I love the Montreal angle of these books and they are an easy read. I usually read her books when I travel, but during my most recent flight I was on a plane that had individual media centers so I watched movies the whole time. Now the book has become before bed reading. On the Metro I have been reading What Would Audrey Do? by Pamela Keogh. It is also an easy read. It is broken up into little sections of information, quotes, and advice – perfect for short trips. It is amusing and gives me a little style inspiration. Makes me sit up taller in the Metro as well. I also have started reading Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs: A Low Culture Manifesto by Chuck Klosterman. It is a book that I have been meaning to read for a while. I read the first two essays while alone during my trip to Calgary. It was nice escape from my travel partner to be honest (we did not have a lot in common). I had just done some shopping at a retro-rockabilly shop and was eating a terrific meal at a stylish vegetarian restaurant while reading from a smartly written book about cultural observations. So nice. Live
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June 3rd During a recent off encounter I had the lovely pleasure of watching two friends have sex. She was riding him, and while the entire sight was quite a vision of sexiness, it was his expression that really kept my attention. He had that dizzy, overwhelmed and lost in the moment expression. It was so different than his other expressions. Was a veil of control lifted? Was he displaying his instinctual, primal self? It seemed that way. His expression was raw and vulnerable. I love this kind of like magic. Maybe inspired by yesterday or just the heat and humidity - I was listenign to this song. Do
you believe in magic in a young girl's heart Lovin' Spoonful The other night I got to rehearse the scene I am doing in the Montreal Fringe Festival play – The Dragpiper. I thought I knew my lines but doing them in front of the director, the other actor in my scene and the light tech – well, I was all a bit of a mess. (James doesn't like to run lines so I had been working with Miss Mew.) I felt really goofy about it. I did some work on them last night, dreamed about it during sleep and now I feel like I have a much better handle on things. I still need to make my physical movements sharper (and more suggestive and predatory). By our next rehearsal I should be right on track. Week of June 9th, 2008The next two weeks are going to be c-r-a-z-y! I have rehearsals every night this week and then we open the play on Saturday (and it runs until the 22nd). It is pretty intense schedule. During the day I have complete my daily work (updates and designs for website clients, my own website updates and tasks), household chores, and workout (I am trying to get a bit more serious and consistent with my yoga and my running - today is a yoga day). I think I can handle ti all as long as I break it up into manageable chunks. At least that is the plan. However, it is super hot and humid right now so I feel quite lethargic and little headache-y. Humidity can do that to me. Hoepfyll, James will put the a/c in and I can get some decent sleep. WIth 18 hour days ahead of me I really need it! Update: Today's webcam show had to be cancelled. We had a 4 hour power failure due to some thunderstorms that hit my area. I am so sorry about this. I was in the bath shaving when we lost power. Definitely wacky!! I did not feel very well on Monday (on top of the lethargy I had an upset stomach that woke me up at 3 am). But now I am feeling quite good, quite energized. This is such a good thing. The thunderstorm pushed out the humidity so I think that helped. The humidity tends to affect my sinuses and makes me feel heavy. Less humidity and I am back to my bouncy self. Because I am participating in this year Montreal Fringe Festival I thought I would feature some shows I think you should see. Today it is Shoshinz with Cherry Typhoon. Shoshinz and Cherry Typhoon are some of the most delightful, powerful performers in Tokyo!!! They will dazzle you with their hilarious stage antics without words - but with voices, bodies, and magical souls!!! You will want to put all 3 of them in your pocket after watching their show.
Sunday June
15th 23h30 (2 for 1) $9 + $2 (service
fee) They will also be performing at my Team Burlesque show on June 19th (10pm at Club CODA 4119 St-Laurent)!! Last night, on my way back from rehearsal I bumped into two friends that I had made at last year’s Fringe – Clare and Dan. They perform in a musical comedy show about a German brother and sister (Otto and Astrid) punk rock band called Die Roten Punkte. I love musical comedy and last year their show was just amazing, one of my favourites. I cannot wait to see what they come up with for this year.
Friday June
13th 21h15 $9 + $2 (service
fee) They will also be performing at my Team Burlesque show on June 19th (10pm at Club CODA 4119 St-Laurent)!! Last night was opening night for the festival. I had rehearsal and a meeting that evening but I was able to make it to the beginning of the Fringe Parade led by my friend Gina the Dragpiper (star of the play I am doing) and then make my way with Miss Sugarpuss to the party. I had a lovely time chatting a bit with Cherry Typhoon and watching the Out of Towners perform one-minute bits to entice people to come to their show. There really do seem to be some awesome shows. I am definitely going to make it out to as many as I can. And now onto today’s plug. <grin> I missed them last year, but they are back this summer with a smart and sassy 1950s musical comedy – Lard (like grease but thicker). I am talking about Big Moves – the only producing and training organization in the USA dedicated to creating high-quality, mutli genre dance productions featuring performers of all sizes.
Saturday
June 14th 22h30 $9 + $2 (service
fee) They will also be performing at my Team Burlesque show on June 19th (10pm at Club CODA 4119 St-Laurent)!! Yesterday was our last rehearsal. There were mixed results. I think we had some weird vibes going on because we are all tense about our opening night. My scene was OK but definitely one of the oddest versions I have done. I totally blame the Guru energy drink I had. I rarely drink such things but thought I could use a little boost. Instead I was shaking like a leaf and my heart was racing. It felt very physical and not all emotional. No energy drinks for me ever again but especially when performing. Once the drink wore off I felt much better. I headed over to see Blastback Babyzap which is a sketch comedy show by my friends at Uncalled For. It was awesome. So awesome. Really funny and smart. I just loved it. Then I stuck around for the 13th Hour which is a Montreal Fringe Festival late night talk show. Miss Sugarpuss and I put on a little show at the end of it for a Fringe volunteer’s birthday. It was improvised silliness (and sexy too – of course). Doing some burlesque-ing with her made me feel grounded again. I ran my lines a bunch this morning and I am feeling good about things again. Now onto opening night….
Saturday
June 14th 24h $8 + $2 (service
fee) Week of June 16th, 2008I got 6 hours of sleep last night! Yea! Still not even close to my usual 9 hours, but it is better than the 4 per night that I have been getting since Thursday. This Fringe Festival is kicking my ass, but in a very good way. After last year when I got a taste of the Fringe Festival experience I decided that for this year I would do my best to do more and enjoy more. I wanted to get to know more people and really be a part of the community. So far that means I have been busy doing promotion for The Dragpiper as well as for the Team Burlesque show. I have been attending all the late night events (at 1am each night there is something called the 13th Hour which is a talk show that gives Fringe performers the opportunity to promote their show in an especially fun and entertaining way). And of course, there are the shows. I saw Blastback Babyzap on Friday (smart, funny sketch comedy) and The Cody Rivers Show Presents: Stick to Glue on Saturday (sketch comedy by a duo from – very fast pace, very physical, very funny). Yesterday I only had to perform a duo burlesque number in the beer tent around noon so I had most of the day to socialize and see shows. I saw Greed (very tight show, great pacing and a creative way to tell a simple story – I won’t give away the twist) and Shoshinz with Cherry Typhoon (so amazing – a mix of dance, voice, burlesque, and pantomime). Today I will be seeing L’Inspecteur Drive Rapplique (Strikes Again!) and Die Roten Punkte. -
So far what I have found that what is getting me through this festival is eating well (Vega protein shakes for breakfast, light and healthy sandwiches and cold soups during the day, and a little greasy food at night – yea fries!), not drinking very much alcohol (3 drinks max!!) and dancing my butt off at the 13th Hour. The late nights have made me tired, but I have not been hung over. It really makes a difference – especially as it is very hot and humid in Montreal. Being hung over in the sun makes you even more lethargic. - I will write about our opening night in a day or two. Live
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June 17th The Dragpiper opened on Saturday and we did our second performance last night. We now have 4 more to go. I was a bit nervous the first night. I felt my heart race during my scene and before hand my throat got phlegmy. I kept my composure on the outside, but on the inside I was feeling a little wacky. Not a nervous wreck by any means, but I was anxious. It was a good feeling somehow. It made me feel like the show was a risk and I was about to do something a little dangerous. I was nervous-excited. Our turn out for the first show was quite good. Nearly a full house but the second less so. The play is a first time effort for the writer and for many of the actors. We all have day jobs but we have rehearsed hard and I think we are a good team of people doing our best, taking risks and challenging ourselves. The first act is a bit heavy and drags a little (no pun intended), but I think it gets its feet so to speak in the second act after the plot has been exposed. The performances are sassier and easier for people to take in. As such we have been getting a mixed response which is a little painful, but also understandable. Regardless, I am happy to be performing with a nice group of people. Team
Burlesque Tonight Tonight Team Burlesque is hosting a burlesque cabaret as part of the Montreal Fringe Festival - 10pm at Club Coda (4119 St-Laurent). Please come out if you can. We have put together a nice line up with some great special guests. I am not sure of the venue (oh, the headaches of working with venue owners – they make promises but will they keep them – we will see). It has been the main stressor of the show. I have my fingers crossed about that part. I won’t be able to stay to chat after the show though. I will be running down the street to do The Dragpiper play. It will be a crazy night but I am looking forward to it all. I have some new costumes that I have made myself and the numbers are so silly, so fun. This I am looking forward to. No fingers crossed about that. I am not smiling as much as I was before. It has to do with a little romance I had. I met a fellow opening night. I felt bold and made a move. We spent the next few nights kissing and kissing and kissing. It was just delightful. He is delightful. So funny and smart and talented and enthusiastic. Also shy, intense and goofy. I intimidated him with my forwardness and things got a little awkward. Still, after a little more boldness on my part things were consummated and in a really lovely passionate way. Such a sweet guy. Sexy too. And now he is moving on to the next city, the next festival. And it feels bittersweet for me. I am not smiling as much as I was before. Week of June 23rd, 2008Moving
Back to Normal I am utterly exhausted. Utterly. That word makes me think of udders and when I am writing out the word utterly I have to double check to make sure I have not written out udderly. OK, I just looked it over and I wrote the right word. That bit of nonsense offers up a good example of the state of my brain right now. Exhausted. The Montreal Fringe Festival experience was an amazing one, but I definitely did not get enough sleep. I also definitely pushed my boundaries when it came to social networking and being friendly. I came out of my shell and got to meet and socialize with a broad range of performers and volunteers. I am quite pleased with myself. I am sure there were moments of social awkwardness, but moving from the sidelines to right in the middle of the action was worth it. I feel that I am finding my place in the Montreal Fringe community. I am also pleased with Team Burlesque’s presence at the festival. I think we starting to come together in a wonderful way and that people are starting to take notice of our efforts. I performed three times besides what I did in The Dragpiper and at our special event show. L Diablo and I did our Cheerleader number on a hot sunny Sunday morning plus Miss Sugarpuss and I did a special birthday number for one of the tech people on Friday June 13th and then my zombie number on Friday June 20th. For those of you who have wanted to see me perform, now you can. The organizers of the fest filmed it and posted it online on You Tube.
We also got a very nice little write up in the Montreal Gazette. Very nice! Now I have an absolute tonne of laundry to do and a bunch of burlesque costumes to carefully put away. I figure by Wednesday my life will be back to normal. Live
Webcam Show Tonight! It is a holiday here in the province of Quebec. A national holiday – kinda – our politics are special that way. In any case, there still will be a webcam show tonight. There will be fireworks outside and inside. Wink wink. Tuesday
June 24th Unnecessary
Sex Toy Advice I had some new people in my chat room last night. I get new people all the time but sometimes they make their presence known more than other times. Last night it was someone new to me, rather than new to webcam shows, I think. People new to webcam shows tend to be very chatty about how this is their first time and they ask a lot of questions, make many requests and don’t seem to realize that they are sharing the chat room with a hundred or so other people. Very much self involved. Sometimes in an obnoxious way and sometimes in an eager way. I try to help them along as do the regulars and the more experienced webcam show viewers. Last night there were a few people who seemed familiar with webcam shows but not to me so they did not know my show style, my background, my philosophy on sex. Such people sometimes make their presence known with inappropriate behaviour and comments which makes them all the more obvious. One person was going by a female moniker but who knows if she was truly female (you never know with the Net). If she was then she was not particularly friendly to other women. She told other chatters that I was just OK (in terms of looks I suppose) and expressed other feelings of disinterest and judgment in what I was doing on cam (enjoying myself while using a vibrator – wow, how boring!). She also told me I should be using different dildo than the one I was using. I had two issues with this:
I advised this person on the difference between dildos and vibrators and told her that there are tonnes of great articles on the web about them that she could check out. Knowledge is power especially when it comes to sex, I say. Then she told me she has a rabbit and egg and I should use them (neither of which are dildos, mind you – while they can be used for penetration if they vibrate then they are vibrators – pointe finale according to sex toy experts – I’ve done the research for an article and taken a workshop on the subject). I told her that in the near ten years of doing webcam shows and the 15 years of using sex toys I have experimented with many models of toys and purchased a great many indeed. I find that both rabbits and eggs break easily. They have their enjoyable features, but in terms of quality and longevity (and to get off) I prefer other toys. Now the other issue I had with this ‘advice’ from her is that at the time I was using a very high quality vibrator purchased for me by one of my loyal website members. My guess is that she has never purchased a webcam performer such a toy, never mind her own favourites. Also based on the dated nature of her selections (Sex in the City rabbit episode anyone?) and all the amazing sex toys that have come on to the market since then makes me wonder if she really has those toys for “herself”. In any case, this exchange only went on for a few minutes. It was distracting for me as I was moving towards orgasm number one. I wanted to address her comments though because I see my webcam shows as an opportunity to share my sexual experience and knowledge. If I see a teaching moment I take it. Once an issue is addressed I move on which is what I did last night – onto orgasm number two and orgasm number three – plus, some amazing intercourse with James. I had a slightly surreal late night in bed experience. I could hear that James was watching television in the living room – The Daily Show. Coldplay was a guest and they were playing a song from their new CD. I realized as I lay in the dark that their new material fit my mood. It had that melancholy sound to it. I was feeling melancholy. I was tired but unable to sleep. My mind was shooting off into a million directions all at once. I could not relax. I could not feel at ease. Rest was evading me. I was chasing it with my fingers. Fingers on my breasts, nipples, clit. I tried to focus on something pleasant, something arousing, something I wanted to experience again. I went through my personal, internal, sexual Rolodex searching for familiar faces, ones that inspire me. These are men and women who have driven me to the heights of passion and desire. These are individuals who have touched me in ways that made me wild and dizzy with lust. But instead of being able to focus on them I was disturbed by the memories of less than stellar sex, of mishaps, and regrets. While Coldplay was on in the background. Week of June 30th, 2008I went away for the weekend. My friend Joe lives there now. For those of you new to the blog, he is my boyfriend. We have been seeing each polyamorous style for 6 years. We get along tremendously well and work hard to make the relationship work. Having multiple partners is a bit tough for me because it requires me to bring on my A level time management skills as well as the ability to divide my attention yet focus it at the same time. I try to live in the moment and be very present when I am with him (or with James or whomever for that matter), but when you are in more than one serious relationship as well as a few other kinds of relationships you always have other things buzzing through your brain. It can be tricky. Joe moved to Toronto for work in late January and we have had to renegotiate our relationship a bit to deal with its long distance nature. We are definitely in an adjustment period. He has been able to come home for visits, but I have to share him with his friends (he has a very active social life when he is in Montreal). This weekend was the first time I had to go visit him so I was excited about having all this time to focus on him and us. The visit was quite nice. We went to some amazing vegan restaurants. We walked a lot. We watched some movies. We snuggled. We had sex. We showered together. All very nice. Unfortunately, the trip got cut short when he got some news of a death in the family and we had to head back to Montreal early. The drive back was weird as was the time spent when we got back. We were both in a bit of a state of shock. I have been a little mellow and zoned out since (I am friends with the family as well). It has definitely been an odd weekend. Besides contemplating things like life and death I have been sending out all the positivity and compassion I can to the family involved. I am so excited. I got new glasses. I have known I needed I new prescription for some time now and finally got around to going to the optometrist for an examination. She confirmed it. I am more near sighted than ever. So she set me up with a nice new pair of glasses. I am also to stay off contact lens for awhile as my eyes are sensitive to them and I have been experiencing some serious irritation from them. No worries there as I love my new pair. They are black and a bit retro. The frames are very solid and best of all I can see so much better!
You can see me in webcam action tonight – wearing my new glasses of course! Tuesday
July 1st I am back on a consistent running schedule. I am so happy about that. During the Fringe Festival my schedule was geared towards the play and the late nights so I was getting the bare minimum of sleep and I was on the go when I was awake. Exercise was all the walking and dancing I was doing (which was quite a bit). Still I missed my running. I have been sticking to short and steady 3k runs this week. Starting next week I will add a couple 5ks and later add a slow, long run the following week. I want to get back to my happy running distance of regular 8ks with a long run of 12k once a week. Also on the agenda is to get back to the yoga studio. It is a a few metro stops away from my house and while I have been pretty good about going (before the Fringe anyway) I am wondering if I should find a studio closer to home. A bit more research needs to be done I think. your summer exercise regime? | semi permalink I was up early this morning and at a secret breakfast meeting. Well, the meeting is not a secret. I just told you about it. But the topic of the meeting, well, that is a secret. I can say it is something that I first considered many, many months ago and I am now revisiting since someone else had the same idea and wants to make it a reality. More meetings will now ensue and by the end of the month we should be able to make the announcement of what this secret actually is. Until then, my lips are sealed (and my brain will be a storming). Now a new little segment for the blog... Seska : Today Web reading: Hard to swallow: the truth behind the health myths Video viewing: Ducklings Song in my head: Mr. Roboto |
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