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What's fresh and new in the life and work of Seska Lee. Week of April 7th, 2008 I am so sore. I have started an intense workout regime that features 30 workout classes in 30 days. I am right on track and am feeling it in my glutes and quads. ‘Feeling it’ is an euphemism. My legs are killing me. I am walking around like the Tin Man before he gets his oil tune-up from Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz. I had James rub some Absorbine Jr into my legs last night – he is my Dorothy. That helped as did a good night’s sleep. Today I took a yoga class and while it had its intense moments and I focused on those legs muscles some more, it did loosen me up and this afternoon I am able to walk with a little more grace and dignity. I have two horrible blisters and they are due to vanity. I went out on Saturday night to see some sketch comedy hosted by two friends in the Uncalled For improv troupe and featuring Toronto sketch comedy troupe the Sketchersons as well as some bluegrass music by Lake of Stew. It was a casual night so I was in jeans and sweater. However, I felt like being girlie so I wore a pair of heels. I found them a bit loose (I bought them in 7 wide) so I added an insert to fill them up. Well, that seemed to increase the friction (though they did not fall off) and a blister on each foot appeared an hour into the evening. Now, I am in painful healing mode. Flirting goof of the week: I told a guy that his sex appeal was palatable. I meant palpable. It was 5am. I was not drunk but it was 5am. I did not score. Tonight is webcam show night. I am looking forward to getting downa nd groovy while we chat. James and I being groovy. Now, that is certainly one way to describe it. <grin> Tuesday
April 8th I will also be taking part in a Team Burlesque show this weekend. It will be a late night cabaret and should be loads of fun. Here is a little promo video I create for the event. I spent an hour or so today working on the costume and music for a new number that I will be performing on Saturday. I really love the concept and it is quite silly. It requires me to be in awkward positions though and it makes me wish I was more flexible. The crouching positions are the toughest. I wish I could get lower but I seem to get stuck at just below squat level. I am working on improving flexibility by taking a few yoga classes a week and if I stick to it I should see improvements in a few months. Not soon enough for the debut of this number but that is OK. I wish I was more flexible in other ways as well. My schedule can be pretty fixed. In my mind it is not, but when a friend or family member asks me if I am free to do something finding a free spot in my calendar can be challenging. I think this is because I work for myself and I work from home. I do a bit of work most days a week (sometimes lots of work – especially now as I take on more webmaster work). I also have lots of other projects going on like the burlesque and volunteer work. I have been told I take on too much and I am trying to scale back. Still it I hard because I get excited about new projects and possibilities. I blog a lot about finding balance. A part of me wishes I could make a decision once and then just have it be the end of it. Setting up your life in terms of your work, your schedule, your expectations, your responsibilities – I sometime wish they would be static and stable things. But life is rarely like that. You need to be ready for change. You need to be able to compromise. You need to be able to be flexible. I have been doing a lot of walking these past few days. Partly because of the fine weather Montreal has been enjoying and partly to keep up the momentum I have created with my workouts. I want to keep moving and moving. Being out in the fresh air has been another strong motivator. For the most part, I have spent this winter indoors at my computer desk or at meetings and rehearsals. The air has been stagnant and I have felt stagnant in ways. This Spring I feel is a time for drive and motivation. The fresh air fills my lungs and gives me energy to make some changes. Nothing too unexpected. Just getting off my butt and tackling some home projects I have been meaning to for ages. Just taking on some new web design and webmaster work I have been contemplating for a couple of years now. Just making my health and well being a priority again. I find I have to wait until I am ready to do things. When I push myself before I am ready I make mistakes, I feel awful inside, I get really stressed out. But when I am ready, when things feel right, then change is welcomed. I feel like I am in the right headspace to get moving.
The other night I got to see such a view of city. There sky was not quite black yet and the lights of the downtown buildings twinkled everywhere. I was seeing it from the Basin, but wished I could have walked to the top of the Mountain to see it from there. It was a cool urban experience. Week of April 14th, 2008 What a weekend. Joe was in town so I spent my nights with him. I also did a bunch of burlesque and show work. I had rehearsal on Friday afternoon and then I went home for supper before getting ready to go to a house party with Joe and his friends. It was a small gathering and quite a bit of fun. One couple is getting married and the typical stresses of going through the pre-counselling and all the wedding arrangements is taking their toll on the couple. My wedding was not at all like that. It was smaller and less traditional. In any case, I got inspired to give advice on how to have a happy marriage – do not nag, pick your battles and lose the stubbornness about getting your way. I am still working on these things myself after being together with James for 15 years, but I feel I have made a lot of progress in recent years. That night, after some lovely and intense reunion sex (it had been about a month since we had last seen each other), we went to bed at 4 am. Joe drove me home the next afternoon (after doing a quick bit of shopping to get something for my performance – yellow sock for my egg hatching number) and then I took my time getting my show stuff organized (lots of costuming this time as I was in 4 numbers and 3 sketches) and getting my body ready for the show (shaving, lotion-ing, glitter-izing, hair curling, and make-up). Then I went over to Miss Sugarpuss’ place and we finished up some posters for the show. They had the names of the performers and the titles of the numbers. Since we did not have a traditional MC we had our fabulous stage kitten Suzy Applebottom paraded with them and read them out. After my show James was a sweetheart and brought my stuff home and I went out to meet Joe who was at a club. His friends were gathered for a big going away party for him and one his friends (plus it was some gal’s birthday as well. I switched into comfortable shoes and joined in the dancing. We closed down the bar and then headed home. It was another 4 am bedtime. Sunday was brutal. Two nights in a row I did not get the sleep I needed. My mind was still racing. My Team Burlesque show was in the past, but now I had to focus all my energies on the next show – a Tribute to the Red Light for Stella’s 13th Anniversary party (Friday, April 18th). I am co-producing the show, as well as co-writing it. It will be a mix of monologues, sketches and performances (burlesque, lip sync, singing and dancing). We had our rehearsal Sunday afternoon and then I worked a little bit into the evening to take care of loose ends with the one of the other producers. I got home while the Canadiens were in over time against the Boston Bruins. I was bummed that I had missed the game but I am sure that had I been home to watch the game I would have fallen asleep on the couch. That happened on Thursday. Even my beloved Habs being in the playoffs is not enough to keep my eyes open these days. Live
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April 15th Joe was getting his tires changed so we decided to take a walk around the semi-industrial area as we watied. We saw a lone seagull and discovered he was doing something a little special.
I wanted to send out a big thank you to Come As You Are for donating a prize pack for the raffle at the most recent team burlesque show. Not only did thye put together a nifty little gift bag of sexy goodies (condoms, lube, a toy and book), but they also did so record time - fulfilling my last minute request with grace and ease. For all your sexual needs (well, except the one-on one kinds - grin) shop online at Come As You Are. Or if you are in Toronto do as I do and get your sex supplies at their Queen Street West shop. Their staff is friendly and helpful, their inventory expansive and of high quality. Good stuff, I tell ya! And if you ever feel like getting me a little gift, here is my personalized Come As You Are shopping list (just enter Seska under nickname - no password required). Stella's
13th Anniversary Show I shot this backstage while the cast of the show was waiting to go on.
Week of April 21st, 2008 Finally, a different sort of weekend. It was one where I stayed home. It was good. On Friday night I had the Stella 13th Anniversary party and show which was a success. There were some tech issues and a couple of timing issues that were out of my control (a little frustrating) , but with a good team behind me I kept things together. We got a good response and I am pleased with our efforts. It makes me want to do more shows about sex work. I wrote a few years ago in a members-only journal entry that sex work was my muse and this has not changed. It really does inspire me so much. I came home soon after the show. I had no energy to stay at the party. Even if I had the music was loud and horrible. I can take loud if it is good but this techno dance stuff was just too much for me. Once home I hung out with James. We watched a little TV together and I nearly fell asleep on the couch. Definitely a sign to get to bed which I did. The rest of the weekend was spent at home. I took time off from the gym. I took 7 classes last week – a mix of yoga, kickboxing, stretching and spinning – and went for a run and a few long walks. It might sound like a bit much, but the yoga really seems to be doing its thing – making me feel strong and relaxed at the same time. The routine of blogging in the morning and then going to the gym is also doing its thing. Structuring my day does me some good. On Saturday I did some grocery shopping, made some yummy meals and watched the hockey game (which was so frustrating – please Habs pull it together for tonight – please). On Sunday I did a bunch of computer work – webmastering stuff for some clients I have. It was a long day but a productive one. Next up – a regular week for me. With no shows to work on for good month I am feeling quite optimistic about finally finishing up my taxes, tackling that laundry pile that is glaring at me every time I cross it, doing some spring cleaning and working on some stuff for my personal site. Live
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April 22nd Not
So Objective & A Whole Lot of Defensive I did not realize it until later, but I went wearing my armour. It seems to be something I do often. It is not because of any in the flesh, to my face, experience, but because of the things that get said behind my back and on the web. The specific and the general. The personal and the societal. Mainly things that get said about whores. It makes me defensive. The chip on my shoulder grows. I try to explain myself. Using words can be a struggle. I overanalyze some aspects of my behaviour and simplify others. I am not sure if I make sense. More in the members-area (stuff that is a wee bit more comfrotableto share in that semi-private space)... Week of April 28th, 2008 Oh my goodness. Where did the week go? I feel a little lost as I try to figure out what I did with myself. The apartment is a mess and I feel like I have not had anything close to my normal routine. Perhaps the last entry says a bit on my state of mind. It started with having a bit of a flash from the past which got me to thinking of a few things. Then it was busy, busy time for me work-wise (a website design project for a client). Throw in a late night out that hit me hard (cute, cute boy and lots of smooching) and a Team Burlesque meeting (great summer plans ahead of us) and I was in the midst of a whirlwind. I kept hold of my hat and made it through. Now I have a semi-busy week ahead of me and I want to get back to my routine. It grounds me. Granted, I am not off to the best start. Today has been an unusual one. I had to skip yoga. This morning was the only time I could book for a very much needed 4 hour shoot for a proper burlesque portrait (I need it to apply to festivals as well as for press opportunities). When I got home I was beat so I took a quick nap. Next, I baked some cupcakes for a ladies networking thing I am going to tonight. Now, I am here blogging before I head to the bank to deposit my student loan payment and grab a couple for things for tonight. What will tomorrow hold? Well, I do have a lunch meeting with a potential another website design client, but beyond that it will be same-old same old: blogging in the AM, yoga later on and then my much loved weekly webcam show (some people don’t get it how much James and I enjoy these shows). Live
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April 29th I have started working on some little video blogs that will feature me talking about some of my quirks. Before I can put them together I need a title for them. Basically, I share a personal observation or demonstrate the way I do something. The working name for the project is way too long and has no pizzazz - things you might not halve know about Seska. I need your help. Do you have any suggestions for the title of these blogs? What a week!! So many appointments and meetings!! I had thought I could take it easy, but it looks like tomorrow is the only day for that. It has been non stop go since 8am Monday. Tomorrow will be a day of calm in comparison. While I don’t have any business to take care of, I do have housework to tackle (yes, the laundry continues to glare at me). I’d also like to spend some quality time with James. I feel like we have been seeing each other only in passing. He tends to get out of bed around the time I have to jump out the door. The exception being we watched Survivor tonight before I rushed off to a meeting for The Wawa Show (stands for We Are Women Artists and is a fabulous show featuring female singers, dancers, comedians, actors, musicians, etc… - not Lilith Fair style though – it is a cabaret and is a bit saucy and such). So, I am crossing my fingers and wishing on a falling star for an easy-peasy day for Seska. Video
Blog - Movie Day James and I went to the movies for the first time in many months.
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