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What's fresh and new in the life and work of Seska Lee. Week of January 7th, 2008 I have finally come up with my plan of action for the new year. The theme is getting into a routine. From past experience I know that it helps me stay on top of things, but sticking to one long term can be a challenge. Right now, my goal is to accomplish certain things each and every week, with many thing happening daily. I will add and remove to this list in the coming days as I start to feel it out and see what it doable and what is not. I have some sense of certain tasks as I have timed myself in the past. Some others I might need to change. Readjustment is an important part of a good routine. - Work on my Seska 4 Lovers Blog – 1 hour per day, 5 days a week, with writing and coding (I hand code all of my sites by the way. Sure, a CMS and automation might lighten my load, but it comes with other issues I am not interested in dealing with at this time.) Work on my Seskuality Blog – 1 hour per day, 5 days a week (this will include research, writing and coding) Work on marketing and traffic aspects of my sites – 1 hour per day, 5 days a week (this task is shared with James as we have different styles and tactics) Videoblog once a week. Not so hard to do but I need to make it as easy and as simple as possible. Work on my burlesque projects – 3 hours per week, divide up based on the demands of the project (could be rehearsal, could be researching and writing, could be working on costuming, etc…) Do my bookkeeping duties one hour a week (I often leave this task to the last minute and am scrabbling when tax time comes around. Not good at all.) - Other work things I still need to address is email correspondance. I am pretty good at keeping up with it but could do better. James and I share the content creation and update tasks so we need to have a meeting sometime soon to re-assess what are realistic goals for us in this department. The porn content we create is a reflection of my actual sex life so we are always aware and respectful that it has to suit us personally - not just commercially. - Household chores – 30 minutes per day (I found this wonderful little list of daily stuff to do from Real Simple Magazine and made reminder cards that are on my fridge. I find it helpful.) Work out each and every day (5 days a week of cardio, three days a week of my strength routine, core workout daily as well as stretching and walking for 20 minutes – mostly just to get out of the house. I know when I stick to this schedule I feel my best – strong, relaxed and up for anything that comes my way) Eat clean (For me that means doing some of what I already do now. This includes warm water with lemon first thing in the morning followed by a breakfast of slow cooked oatmeal with freshly ground flax and pumpkin seeds, veggie soy sausages and oj with calcium. Lunch, supper and snacks have not always been so healthy so I committing to eating simply with the focus on rice, vegetables, fruits and legumes and avoiding processed foods with the exception of Vega food replacements powders which I fine to be a very decent alternative. Again when I eat this way I feel my best and my looks are positively affected.) Work on my French 3 times a week (I am not sure how long I will spend on this activity. I have an exercise book from my college days that I find really effective, but I will play it by ear how long I want to spend on the exercises.) - I want to watch as little TV as I can. This has not been hard in recent weeks as shows have been on hiatus. But with LOST and other shows coming back it looks like I may have 1-2 hours booked each day with my favourite shows. In the same vein I want to severely limit the mindless surfing I do online. This includes my greatest time waster - celebrity gossip blog. Useless information to clog up my brain. I still need to decide how social obligations will fit into my plan of action. I need to make sure I make time for my family and my friends. I also need to figure out some larger household cleaning and organizing projects – exactly what needs to be done and how and when James and I will accomplish them. Tuesday,
January 8th My eyes are irritated. I think I caught yet another cold - this time from James . Three colds in three months! I think my immune system is taking a beating from being rundown from lack of sleep. I have my upstairs neighbour to thank for that. They have a new puppy who cries in the wee hours of the morning - for a good hour. I will likely be wearing my glasses tonight. Good for you specs lovers! I might also be a little high from some Dayquil. Not sure who that is good for. <grin>
My boyfriend Joe is moving to Toronto. It may or may not be a temporary thing. We will see. When he talked about this decision I thought it was good thing. I want him to have a successful career and he needs to go where he needs to go to accomplish that. Still, I feel this is a bit of turning point in our relationship and I am going to miss him terribly. While we are very close (we have been seeing each other for 5 and half years), my life partner is James and I cannot be Joe’s. I have mixed feelings about this. I have wondered at times if I am holding Joe back from finding that with someone else. I also feel that given the time we have spent together, and our wonderful rapport, that we are blessed to have found each other. We care for each other deeply and I don’t think there is anyone in his life right now that knows him as well as I do, that loves him like I do. I have found that I can have these strong feelings for more than one person at a given time and that I can manage them quite well. Can he? I am not sure. Do I need to move out of his way so he can take a chance and try to find someone else? Of course, he is an adult and is capable of making his own decisions. He chooses to be with me just as I choose to be with him. What we have is pretty damn special and I think neither of us wants to give it up for some sort of imagined future. I also think we know that things will change between us as he goes to pursue his career. It is scary for both of us, but something we know we must face. The unknown future. A little extra complicated when you are in a polyrelationship because traditional or status quo expectations are not part of the equation. Video
Blog - Night Out Last night I went to see a comedy show and afterwards went into the back room and shot a little video blog entry about the evening thus far as well as some life stuff I have been dealing with. I added some little captions to this one. Hope you enjoy it.
Windows Media 13.6mb - 2:44min Projects mentioned in this entry: DeAnne
Smith presents Stand Up Strip Down V-Day
Montreal Meeting I had a fantastic meeting today with two of the organizers for V-Day Montreal. We talked about a few different things – the specifics of this community project and our general impressions of its themes (personal and political). I was approached last month through the Team Burlesque project to organize a burlesque cabaret as a benefit for the V-Day project and then I was asked to perform in the Vagina Monologues itself. It is all very exciting. We brainstormed some ideas for my performance and I am happy with what we came up with. The piece is not long, but it has some punchy parts and I will have to make sure my timing is right on to make the most of the piece’s impact. I look forward to developing it with some help from their team and with my friend Miss Sugarpuss who is an experienced and talented actress. I am also excited about the burlesque cabaret which is titled VaVaVoom! It will be held at Cabaret Mado on February 7th and will feature various members of Team Burlesque as well as some new faces (and boobs). Details to come! Besides the main event (February 15th & 16th) and the burlesque cabaret there will also be a concert (January 30th) and an art show (February 12th). A little something for everyone! All of the V-Day Montreal events are community fundraisers with proceeds going to the following charities – Shield of Athena Family Services (a non-profit, accredited social services agency that provides information, referral and support services to women and children who are victims of family violence), Stella (a non-profit sex worker rights, resource and support organization – of which I am a member), the YWCA and V-Day International. Week of January 14th, 2008 Last night I performed in the V-Day McGill benefit cabaret. The organizers had asked my friend Miss Sugarpuss to be part of the show and then I asked if I could perform too. I was in the mood to hit the stage again. It had been nearly month without it for me and quite some weeks since I had done something from my collection of standard routines. December was all about Christmas themed numbers. I missed it. I assisted Miss Sugarpuss with her numbers – bringing out posters with the titles of her performances, encouraging the audience on the clap, hoot and holler as a proper burlesque should, as well as helping with her props. It was similar to my role in The Cocktail Hour where I played the elements – wearing a black unitard outfit I held large cut outs of the sun, moon, and other objects while dancing around stealth-like (but not stealth-like at all – that was part of the gag). This time I symbolised the passage of time with a lovely clock I made from bristle board and construction paper. My solo number was different. I dance around in a pink sequined frou-frou dress greatly anticipating opening a huge box that is on the stage. I won’t tell you what it was inside it except to say it brings me joy and I dance around some more as well as take of my clothes. I can tell you the box is wrapped in turquoise paper with impostor My Little Ponies on it.
It was also so good to perform and work Miss Sugarpuss again. We make a great team. We are very different kinds of performers, but we share a passion for burlesque and what we can express through it. We had a few random light bulb moments last night for various projects we have planned in the near and far future. We were pretty excited to be performing and the brilliant ideas just made us all the more thrilled. Always good to have that kind of energy – especially when it shared with a dear, dear friend. Tuesday,
January 15th Lately, I have been wearing nude stockings with my pretty garter belts during my webcam shows so I am going to mix things up tonight and wear some pantyhose. I love tearing them up for better access. ;-) A long day is behind me. On Tuesday I worked as a photographer’s assistant for a catalogue shoot that featured 63 jackets. I arrived at 8:45 am and left at 4:30 pm. The work was not hard, but it was tedious. The photographer was my friend AH and who is a great gal so it was pleasant to work with her. The model was nice as well thankfully. He did his job just right – stood in three positions over 63 times. No ego issues, no insecurities covered up with narcissism.I tried to be pleasant too as 63 jackets to deal with was a fair amount of work. Then in the evening I had my webcam show. Luckily I snuck in a 20 minute nap in between my work day and my show prep. That helped re-energize me. The long day was not so much the issue. It was getting up much earlier than I am used to. My body still wants to go to bed at its normal time even when I know I have an early morning ahead of me. In any case, once refreshed and relaxed, my webcam show was a whole lot of fun. I wore my pantyhose and very much enjoyed the sensation of rubbing my hands against my legs, my legs against each other and having James stroke them as well. Just lovely. I made a little announcement during my show - that I am interested in doing Pay Per Minute webcam shows. I have been thinking how I’d like to do those kinds of shows for a while now. I tried it a couple of times in the past, but my schedule was such that I could not commit the time required. That has changed so now I am on the search for the best network for me. I’d love it if people who are clients of PPM webcamming let me know their thoughts on their experience. Which cam systems do you like? Why? How do you find the broadcasts and the interfaces? I have a sense of how things are from a performer perspective based on my conversations with other webcam performers (which has been very, very helpful), but I’d also like to hear from clients. Email me or leave your thoughts in the comments. Thank you! Another busy day at the office. This time mine. I did some research into the private webcamming biz. Looks like all the systems archive private shows for future sale. They also own the content and can do as they see fit with it. Most will just use it online and within their own system. The feeds are not such good quality that they make DVD or TV sense. But it does concern me that what I would prefer to be a private exchange between two consenting adults (albeit with commercial implications for the two of us) will possibly be viewed by others. Even if I get a cut it feels a bit exposing. I don’t mind sharing my fantasies with the world, but I am not so sure about those that are instigated by my clients. Do they understand that their shows are being archived? Even if you do not hear their voices or see their images it is their turn-ons that are being sold. I am sure it is in the Terms and Conditions that they have checked off when paying, but it still is something that has raised my eyebrow. Being as it is the status quo of these systems it will be something I have to accept. Another bit of work I did was create a new clip for my Clips 4 Sale store. It is a small store and I only plan on putting a small selection of my video content on it. Still, it is a good option for those of you who would like to see a specific bit of video without joining my website. I’d also like to create some niche and fetish content for it - some that falls within my areas of interest (foot and pantyhose stuff) and some that I am open to, but is not necessarily a sexual turn-on of mine (sneezing and tickling). I shot this videoblog entry late on Thursday night while out at a bar with a friend. There was an old-fashined telephone booth there so I used it as my 'set'. It was dark and rather loud, but I think the ambiance makes it all the more fun. At least that is how I felt being in a public place and chatting about how height is a turn on for me.
Windows Media 11.4mb - 2:19min Week of January 21st, 2008 Special
Day & Time!! This week’s webcam show is scheduled for a special day and time because I will be going away for a few days to Toronto. It is my boyfriend Joe’s birthday and I thought it would be nice to spend some time with him – especially since he is not living full time in Montreal anymore. I also plan on see the Scandelles who are putting on their fantastic show Who’s Your Dada? at Buddies in Bad Times Theatre and hopefully spending time with my online acquaintance Raymi (we have a mutual admiration society thing going on). This is my first time getting out of town since this summer. I am looking forward to changing my perspective a bit and seeing friends I normally just communicate with online. Yea! I sould be able to blog while I am gone but just in case there is some sort of crazy connection or uploading issue here is a little pic to help you pass the time while I am away.
Arrived in Toronto safe and sound. I took the bus because they had a could-not-miss deal. It was a little under 7 hours. About 2 hours more than by car (depending if there is no traffic and the person pushes the speed limit) and about 1 � to 2 hours longer than by train (depending on whether you get the express). The bus was not full so nearly everyone had two seats to themselves. This made the long ride bearable. Got to stretch out my legs. I had packed a lunch and I passed the time listening to CBC Radio 3 podcasts and figuring when and what I would eat. I also read a little from the February SELF magazine that I had received in the mail that morning (good timing). Now, I am off to the gym with Joe and then we will get ready for our day. I am going to take a proper shower (we have an old fashioned bath tub at our place). I love staying at other people�s places for many reasons, but the main one being a proper shower! Later we will be going to see a taping of the show The Hour and hanging out with some friends I made via an online forum - one of who I have yet to meet in person. I am looking forward to hanging out with them. They are great gals. It was great meeting up with my friends yesterday. We got to catch up and hang out. Lots of laughs and lots of chatting. Joe was our 5th wheel so to speak - the only guy in the group but he was cool with us all. Teased me affair bit, but that is par for the course it seems with being with him and James as well. I am a target. In the evening Joe and I went to the Horseshoe Tavern for a beer and to listen to some music. We did not stay too long we saw the first band who reminded us of Weezer (and which we enjoyed very much) and part of the second band whose music was good but when the vocals began we were less engaged. Sorry no names. I did not see any flyers for the night. Today I will be getting together with Raymi and then off to see Who�s Your Dada? I may not have time to get back home to change so I am going to bring along extra make-up and a fresh �night time top� for a washroom make-over. Now I am off to run on the treadmill and then enjoy another fantastic shower. Le sigh. PS I forgot to bring my camera with me on my little day 1 outings but I will be wiser this time and bring it along. I want to grab some shots from the day as well as shoot some video blogs for future postings. It has been a bit of a whirlwind of a trip. Yesterday�s activity (and gin & tonics) added to the feeling. The day began with puttering around the apartment, wonderful shower, and a little romp with the boy. Then he made me some very yummy vegan dumplings with peanut sauce (he has now found his perfect recipe). They were delicious. Then I took the streetcar to meet up with Raymi. I had a little trouble finding the place as it is off an alley behind a main street. It is called the Green Room. Cheap food and cheap booze. Old sofas. Reminded me a bit of Mad Hatters (two incarnations ago) here in Montreal. Just no books. The music was a little dated. Raymi is much more of a music person than I am, but even I sort felt like we were in a time warp. When Dido came on I thought �I have that CD - it is definitely old because when was the last time I bought a CD (OK, I still buy them but it is super rare). During our time together we chatted about our blogs, how we make the personal commercial, how some people take advantage of our notoriety or �knowing' us, and stuff like that. It is good to meet up and commiserate with someone who is in a similar situation as you - especially when what you do is not seen as valid or meaningful by much of the world around you. We do different things but have that kind of stuff in common. Brave not-so-new world of blogging. Ah, so misunderstood. Though it must be noted we also had lots of good stuff to say about what we get out of blogging and making our personal lives so public. In fact, I proposed to her my secret plan for us. It is a long term plan and like I said secret so I cannot spill the beans yet. During the late afternoon we indulged in consumption of munchies and booze. I realized I was a bit tipsy but thankfully I had not made a fool of myself. I was a little bold and talkative, but not outrageous or unreasonable. It was happy feeling kind of thing. Raymi took a bunch of photos. I documented the sad sate of my bangs (I did not bring any hair products or tools with me for this trip). Photos to follow when I get back. There will also be video of me getting ready in the washroom shot by Raymi herself. She definitely has a better eye for such things than myself. It's got a lovely blooper at the end. We have official documented proof if we were to need any for my klutz trial. I hooked up with Joe afterwards and we went to see the Scandelles' show Who�s Your Dada? It was the preview night and they did a fantastic job. I loved it and really encourage you to see it if you are in the Toronto area. It is wild, weird, and stimulating. It is not a burlesque as you know it. It is beyond burlesque. Not a typical cabaret or a variety show either. It has an underlying thread that brings people along for the exploration of current culture and societal forces. Very, very neat. And yes, I got a little misty as always during the whore numbers. As for the booze? Yes, there was a wee bit more during the show. But I went to water at the right time and had some good starchy food when we got home (more of Joe�s yummy cooking - this time a coconut milk curry). So today no hangover! Happy happy! I shot these video blogs on Wednesday January 23rd while in Toronto. First, we have me chatting to myself about my day so far and my plans for the evening.
Next, we have me getting ready to go out shot by guest videographer and blogger extraordinaire Raymi the Minx. There is silly blooper at the end of this one. I am such a klutz.
Windows Media 11.3mb - 2:16min Last, we have me in bed sharing my thoughts on the show I just saw as well as a couple of distractions.
Windows Media 12.1mb - 2:19min Mentioned in this entry: Joe and I drove back from Toronto on Thursday afternoon and the moment I got home I got ready for a burlesque performance I was doing that evening. It was for a benefit a friend organised. In less than a half hour I did my hair and make-up (this is show hair and make-up and requires a fair amount of effort). I was impressed with myself. Thankfully, I was a smart cookie and I had packed up my costumes and props before I had left for my Toronto trip so when I made my quick change I’d just have to grab my bag and go. On Friday and Saturday I assisted at a special photoshoot weekend that my friend AH hosted. It was a Good Girl – Bad Girl themed shoot where regular gals would get their hair and make-up done, choose their costuming from the AH collection and pose for pin-up style photographs. It was really special. I did the make-up and assisted a bit with the hair and styling. I was on my feet for a solid 12 hours each day. Definitely very different than what I am used to (computer desk anti-social behaviour is more my norm). It was also very satisfying and enjoyable. We plan on doing these kinds of themed shoots every couple of months. If you are in the Montreal (and a lady) it should be something you should do – especially if in you want to add a little fantasy and whimsy to your life. The women who came all stated how fun it was to spend some time just on themselves. They had not felt this sexy in so long.
Sunday was a recovery day. I watched movies in the late morning, read and napped in the afternoon, and cooked (pasta primavera) and baked (vegan Boston cream pie cupcakes) in the evening. James and I puttered around and did some errands. I avoided doing any chores. That will be on today’s agenda. Also on the agenda is testing out my laptop with the Pay Per Minute webcam system I have chosen. Once everything is set-up and working fine I will make an announcement of where and when you can find me. Live
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Chat Show Planned Yesterday I tested out Rude's Private Show system. Everything seemed to work well with my computer and camera so I am going to give it a go and offer private shows on a regular basis - though I am still not sure which days and times. If you are interested in purchasing a private show please let me know your preferences and I will see if they match my availability. In addition to offering the pay per minute shows I also will be adding a solo xxx webcam show on the Rude system. The day and time is still to be determined though I am thinking mid-afternoons so my European members can catch me at reasonable time for them. First though I am going to test the Live Group Show system out with a 30 minute 'sexy' chat on Thursday at noon (EST). It will be a free show (and as such non-nude), but I will wear a sexy outfit and we can talk about sexual topics. It will offer us a good way to interact and get to know each other - something I really enjoy about running a personal porn site. Hopefully, people will enjoy the show. I might want to make such a show a regular thing as well. Again, if you have a preference for days and times, please let me know in the comments. Don't worry - I will still be doing my hardcore live webcam show with James on Tuesday nights on SexCamCentral! Rude is a large web-based community that offers all sorts of opportunities for personal interaction between its members. It is free to join and set up a profile. Free
Live Cam & Chat Today!! Update: It seems their system is down. Yikes! I will stick around and see what develops. If I cannot do the show today I will reschedule. So sorry for the inconvenience. Today at noon I will be doing a live cam chat show. It will be 30 minutes long. Come join in on the fun and the conversation. :-) Thursday,
January 31st You will need to register to chat. Don't worry regiatration is free. OK, let's try this again. :-) I have another free Live Group Show scheduled for noon today. I was there yesterday, ready to do my show but the site had a problem with their server. Corrupted something or another. I have my fingers crossed that everything will be all right this time around. It can't mess up twice in a row, can it? Did I just jinx myself? Oh dear. Friday,
February 1st You will need to register to chat. Don't worry regiatration is free. - Big storm is supposed to be coming my way. Montreal had warm weather earlier this week. Made all the sidewalks slushy. Then it got cold so the slush turned to ice which made the sidewalks a skating rink. Now we will get snow on top of the ice. Nice. Just perfect. I love winter (said in a slightly sarcastic tone). - On Wedensday evening I was a snow bunny. I volunteered for a breast cancer foundation fundraiser. They had an après ski theme and I, along with three other gals, wore lamé booty shorts, white turtle necks and fuzzy leg warms. We sold some gift packs and then Lola Lamb and I were gogo dancer. It was such fun. I really hope I can get some gogo dancing gigs in the future. It is great to dress up in silly costumes and shake my ass. A couple pics...
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